Favorites

Here I have two lists of favorites. The first is from last January, the second is from now. I like to see how I've changed, especially since this year has been one of so many changes. I'm in a constant state of development and change, hopefully for the better. We'll see how I feel when I look back at this in another year.

2013:
My favorite smell is either fresh cut grass (not mowed by me), Collin Hoggard's cologne, or fresh mountain air.
My favorite color is either mint green, teal blue, rich plum, or burnt orange.
My favorite crayola crayon name is indigo.
My favorite lower case letters are i and y.
My favorite songs are: Firewood, Be Calm, C'mon, Carry On, Scream and Shout, We Are Golden, Irresistible, Stardust, Emphasis, Always, The Dumb Song, Kyrie, and I'm stopping this list because it will go on forever.
My favorite textures are my sweater, hair, my snuggie, and vintage t-shirts.
My favorite tastes are mint gum, cherry chapstick, and oriental food.
My favorite nail colors are salmon,bright pink, and slytherin green.
My favorite restaurants are La Joia Groves, Panda Express, and Rodizios.
My favorite text I've ever received was 3 pages long.
My favorite notebook had off-white pages.
My favorite punctuation is a semi-colon.
My favorite feeling is falling in love when the fall and love is reciprocated.
My favorite sound is the bell at the end of class.

2014:
My favorite smell is my room at home.
My favorite color is blue.
My favorite crayola crayon name is Wisteria or Mango Tango.
My favorite lower case letter is s.
My favorite songs..... I seriously have tried to think about this for an hour, but there are too many.
My favorite texture is clean hair.
My favorite taste is my mouth right after I brush my teeth.
My favorite nail color is anything bright.
My favorite restaurant would have to be any hipster-ish establishment.
My favorite text I've ever received was about something that doesn't exist.
My favorite notebook has Smaug on the cover.
My favorite punctuation is a period.
My favorite feeling is surety.
My favorite sound is a car turning off.


All in all, I think I've grown up, become a bit more open-minded, and learned to appreciate a myriad of different things, but at the root I'm the same person. I'm still me.

--P.A.

Clear

Don't worry your precious head none.

I'm here.

You're here.

Here we can stay for a little while

and relish the tastes in our mouths of the words exchanged

and the thoughts laid out on the table for consumption.

We'll live each moment like our last,

and when we are in the future we'll be happy that this is our past.

We'll be happy.

So don't fret,

I'm here

and I'm not going anywhere.

You're going somewhere though.

That's why I fret.

Except I don't.

Because it will all be

okay.

It will all be

okay.

In fact, it will be better than

okay.

Just wait and see.

See the sky?

It's blue,

and there are stars out there.

You can't see them right now,

but they're there.

I promise.

Sometimes I want to tell you that it will be like that.

You can't always see me,

but

I promise I'm there.

You won't always see me,

but

I promise I will be there.

Just like the stars.

Or the sun.

Because sometimes

you can't see the sun,

just the reflection of its light on the moon.

Maybe I'm the moon,

reflecting the

light you give me.

Maybe I'm the stars.

Maybe I'm just the air you breathe in.

Constant and essential.

Because you are: constant and essential.

You are lots of things to me.

And someday you will understand and I will understand and it will all be clear.

--P.A.